Today was one of the most challenging days of my life…

By John, 4 June, 2024
John wearing a "Blue Eye Samurai" tee and looking gravely at the camera

😢 Today was one of the most challenging days of my life…

My day started off with two panic attacks, one of which my mind very conveniently scheduled for the waiting area of my therapist’s office. 😂 But I want to quickly assure you that I’m feeling much better now.

I’ve been slowly recognizing a past trauma and the panic was triggered when I realized that I only partially understand that trauma’s effects. I’ve still got work to do.

My therapist reminded me that we don’t have to fix ourselves wholly as fast as possible. Going slowly in a deliberate manner is safer and kinder to ourselves.

How have I started to heal? By practicing meditation to achieve mindfulness, learning about other people’s emotional experiences so that I can better understand my own emotions, and by reconnecting with my current relationships and making new connections.

One of the reasons for me recognizing these hard truths this past week is because my mind sees the support system that I’ve put in place. And my mind knows it’s safe now to let me feel the things I wasn’t able to handle before. It believes in me. And all it has ever tried to do is love and protect me. 💕

Topics: Mental illness


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